Clearing up the disconnect

For the past few weeks, I've had this intense disconnect between my head and my heart. It's like I've had so much to say, and no way to express it; no words, no pictures, no melodies, no movements, not even a tear.
I've found myself sitting in my room, wrestles because of everything going on in my head, and frozen because of the things going on in my heart. This communication barrier is making me insane... and not even the barrier that's keeping me from telling everyone else how I'm feeling, but mostly the one that's keeping me from understand exactly why I'm feeling like this. It's almost as if I could go down a list of a hundred different things that are bothering me at any moment, and still not feel satisfied; like none of the things I listed are the reason I'm feeling so weird.

I hate feeling squirmy, like I'm uncomfortable in my own skin- I need peace.

I hate this frustration; not feeling like myself, the absence of laughter, not enough smiles- I need more joy.

I need to know that You're near me.